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Chunks of color chunks of care chunks of hope and of despair. Make with those four what you can. Chunks of life of light of warmth of love. With all of these we became one. Chunks of courage of trust of wisdom of belief. We made our world, a distant land. Where we are rulers and nothing slips past our outstretched hands.

Everything is beautifully broken. Words, hearts, dreams. Everyone has a purpose, even the unjust. Life is a series of puzzles, sometimes the pieces are missing and you have to search. My search is over, I have found my missing piece, the one piece to complete the picture that I've been working on for years. It took pain, loss, tears, courage, and hope to find but it turned up in an unlikely place. Out of fear, in my own hell, I found the piece that made the whole. The love that I have found was worth the risk, the jump was worth the fall, the fall was worth the scars, because in the end a beautifully broken heart became a shining star

Self destruction is the key. I'm my own worst enemy tearing at my skin ripping at my hair screaming for the world to hear. No one listens. The cut has to be precise or the feeling has no meaning the release not as sweet. The knife seperates my world from yours. I know when to stop yet you think that I can't control myself. I know how it feels to hate myself everyday. 24 hours 7 days a week like an abuse victim hiding from the world. I am my own abuser no one holds the key to my pain I know how to make it hurt and make it go away. My life is not yours to judge. I hurt myself because no one can help me. No one under

She cried in the hallway as she left for the day her work twisted and thrown in her face nothing could prepare her for what she was about to meet the way the earth felt when it scraped her knees as he hit her in the stomach with his fists nothing would ever prepare her for this He lifted her up and hit her again over and over he hit and hit until he got what he wanted that line of promise "I'll never do it again I swear." Lie upon lie looked her square in the face as she lay in all of her mistakes this was the one she'd regret the most she could have stood up to the man who never loved her, never cared, never wanted to be anyt

Hope fails the only way it will work is if we ever leave this world alive nothing can survive forever. Not your love or lies or time or wishes or wants. Torches burn your dreams on the way out the door of life. Torches will consume you as you reach for the things we leave behind

I can remember the times before you left, the skipping school taco bell ride around and hope we don't get caught days. The let's play pool or haunt main, get me fired from my shitty job because being friends with you is more important than the pocket change days. The days I yelled at my boyfriend on the phone in the school parking lot smoking a cigarette and you defended me to the ends of the earth. Getting high in the old house thinking these were the days and life couldn't get any better. The midnight trips and the call to the cops because my mom was being weird. I was so caught up in the good times I forgot to slow down and take it all in.

The miles between us seem so long another lonely road to walk along. Alone again thinking this time it's the end Nothing could prepare me for the call I got when I was sitting on the beach tears falling down, reminding me of why you left, what you said, what I did. I never expected you to apologize, or show up. I don't even know how you found me but The way I felt when the tears were falling is nothing compared to how the rain felt when the downpour started the way I melted into your arms. Stumbled up and down the coast, trying to find a way to keep you close, closer, forever. You stayed and I smiled you promised a restart A

Shimmering shadows on an ultrasound screen You are the light we all need, The true reason we can be happy again. As one, not two, we will always love you. Welcome to life, darling daughter. You are our dreams come true, with love we welcome you into our hearts. You are truly our fresh start.

Chase down the nights when all you did was live. Nothing lasts forever, just ask the last flower of the season. Touching the hand of god just might be fiction. Writing your soul isn't a work of art, it's a struggle. Judged by everyone yet the person who cares the most will never read your words. They already know what's in your heart. You can run away from the words, but they catch up to you in the end. So spill your heart because no one will do it for you. A lesson learned in time, no secrets left unearthed. You inspire the words of others, never losing touch.

I've been walking for days in the dead of night waiting for your lies to settle in my skull Why won't you disappear? I've lived my life in your shadow you brilliant perfect thing I left my life behind to watch yours grow I can't replace your screams with my own no matter how hard I try Why I can't I kill the part of you that's left inside me? Evolving thoughts race. Provoked by your faith in the life you stole from me. Your dreams are cold you lifeless fiend

You claim to disown me And not want to know me But I was your past And you can't hide forever I'm sorry that he gave you Something I apparently never did But at least in the end I wasn't the one boasting Of newfound love or hope Even though this is what I found All in a girl with a smile That broke through my frown And it's not who you'd expect  Even though yours is painted in bold And at least our last time together Meant something for me And I feel like you stole  From the very depths of my soul That night you slept with me With him on your mind And it's an unforgivable sin One I can not overlook So I too can

Did you knock knock on my door wth your phone still in your hands? Did the car break down an hour ago? Where the windows have no light and the eagles lay to rest. Where the arms are, I got the prize. I bow my head and say my prayers. May God bless what I do. Any one of us could be next. Because my time is never wasted, my heart can never smash, I am strong and I am alive. Don't you give it all to me. I'm cold blooded and not running. I'm all rock and ancient ice. Don't mind it. I'm behind you. I won't wrap around a finger unless I'm taking you down. I don't need no more impressing. Some days I wake up avid enough to take